Exciting times.

I have been preparing since last Saturday for company. Everyone who knows me, knows I love to have company. I love to cook for them, cater to their every need, and most of all catch up and visit. I get so excited when people come for a visit and have always wanted my house to seem like a fun place to be. That part is so much easier without Ron.. He did enjoy company to a point, but it was always stressful for me, not knowing what he was gonna say or do.. So, this is my first adult company since we've separated. Two years ago we tore up the flooring in the upstairs bedroom. We intended to replace it, and never got to it. I went Saturday and spent some of my income tax return on laminate plank flooring. Rebecca invited some friends over to help us get it laid, and they got her room nearly done. I finished it and am nearly finished with Eliza's room. It sure feels good to accomplish something. I am a strong woman. I can do all things through Christ. I went out and bought me a skill saw that fits me, I bought a tool set and went to work. I can cut wood as good as any man, I can lay flooring. I can do anything I set my mind to, and that is a good feeling. You can too. I am beginning to know myself again and be confident in who God is in me.
So... back to the weekend, it is the Madisonville Civil War Reenactment. We will be dressed up in period correct clothes and living in a Civil War era camp during the day, Jesse will be a part of the battle on Saturday and Sunday, and everyone will dance at the ball on Saturday night. We are praying for good weather. Regardless, my friend Debbe and her girls and Karla and her little ones are spending Friday and Saturday night with me. My other friend Laura is coming up with her whole family and they will stay Saturday night. I am so excited!! I think I am going to buy a bunch of foot scrub and soaking tubs to pamper us after a long day of tight boots and working. This is gonna be a fun weekend, I am praying for good weather and a clean house. :)

D DAy is Coming..

As the day approaches I wonder, God, are you really gonna allow this to happen. Way back when, you told me Lord, that you told Abraham to lay Isaac on the alter... The end of that story is that you let Isaac not be sacrificed by his obedient father. I know miracles happen, but it would take a super duper one to end this divorce event now. The date is set for February 12th... 2 days before our 17th Anniversary. I can't believe I was lost in the marriage for 17 years. Not that all of it was bad, but for some reason, at this point, it's easier to remember the bad. Thankfully, I don't remember all of it. My long term memory has been erased where Ron wronged me over the years. I don't think I would have survived if it had not been. His presence, to this day wreaks of anger. I know this is a "presence" that abides with him, but it is so evident to everyone but him.
Jesse asked me if he could invite his dad over on Sunday to help him build a club house. Actually to revamp the clubhouse we already have. I said okay. I was reluctant, for obvious reasons, but agreed for obvious reasons... As soon as Ron arrived on my place, I could feel the "presence". I know that is the reason the Lord allowed me to leave and that only God can take that from him. Lord, help us all.